Life and times

So I had another very vivid wedding dream last night. Maybe because it's only TWO WEEKS AWAY!!! I don't know why I remember all this stuff...but it always seems so real.

The wedding began like normal, when my bridesmaids began walking down the aisle, their dresses became orange and a fan turned on and they began flowing in the wind. It all went downhill from there. The wedding turned into a cruise ship show. Like Vegas-style show. Natalie got on stage and began singin "It's In His Kiss" by Cher and then more musical numbers followed. Somewhere along the line a Little Mermaid number began, complete with inflatable whales and "under the sea" bubbles. My bridesmaids danced and sang through numerous costume changes and the next thing I knew I was supposed to step into a giant inflatable whale's mouth to be "swum" down the aisle. Then the whale deflated and I was standing with my dad in a black and white Vegas number ready to walk down the aisle. Don't ask why THIS was the point where I felt it got to be a little too much. Then Dan's mom walked out all pissed off. Then I woke up.

I don't know why I have weird dreams. And I don't know why I remember them. I think this one may be because the wedding is so close and it's starting to feel like a circus! Everything will work out fine. One day at a time!

I'm getting marrried in 39....wait....what!?!? 39 days!! That's. In. Sane. I'm so ready for everything to be over, though. I'm really excited for the big day, not so excited for all the little days leading up to it. I'm trying to take it one day at a time. Whew.

I'm probably more excited for Europe!!! in 46 days. SO ready to be back in the Mediterranean.

Dan and I get our new place on July 1st. There is a lot happening in the next couple of months!

Sidenote: I finished reading My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult. Holy moly twist ending! Waiting for the film to be released later this month. I'm now on to Julie and Julia by Julie Powell. This book is also being made into a movie. Meryl Streep as Julia Child, can't wait!!

I've ALWAYS had off-the-wall dreams. I can't have a normal "I'm waking up and walking to Starbucks" dream. No it has to be "I woke up next to an alligator and when I rollerbladed to Starbucks everyone was dressed like Pocahontas and wearing those umbrella hats." I don't get it. Here is what I remember from last night (always in great color and detail):

I'm in a gym, at some sort of after-prom type event. There's a speaker/performer that looks kind of like LL Cool J. Stuff happens. (This is the filler sentence for parts I don't remember). Then I am cleaning up the gym after everyone has gone, and when I try to go to the bathroom, there's a big blue trash-can looking contraption with a Clorox bleach sticker on it. It has a foot pedal that when you press down, a blue foot on a stick comes out and it kicks the door of the bathroom. The blue box says "for people who are young who want to remind those in the bathroom they are taking too long." (!?!) So instead of going to the bathroom I begin cleaning the gym again. I'm sweeping. LL Cool J is eyeing me. We have a "moment". I'm thinking, "he's cute," but that's kind of the end of it. LL Cool J comes up to me and says that I'm one of the nicest, most sincere and most beautiful people he's ever met. I'm flattered. Stuff happens. Later, we're on a couch and he's kissing me. A very soft, nice kiss. I like it. But it's weird to be kissing LL Cool J. Especially when I'm engaged to be married !! LL Cool J says to me: "This is great. And nobody has to know we're together." I sit up and say,  "No, no. I'm a good girl. I can't do this. Thank you for a lovely evening." But I end up falling asleep on the couch anyway. Next thing I remember, we're (LL Cool J and I) are on a school bus with lots of people I know. My freshman college roommate, April, is there. She seems to know what has gone on between LL Cool J and me. She is holding a Nintendo DS. I say "Oh damn, I forgot my Nintendo DS. What a schmuck I am!!" This goes on for a few minutes. I think LL Cool J might be disappointed about not having someone to play Nintendo with. I compliment April on her new braids. Stuff happens. Next, we're all on a cruise ship. We go on a shore excursion and then are eating on a dockside restaurant when we hear the ship's whistle blow. Time to go! All the ferries have already left for the ship, so this girl and I (she looks like a VH1 reality star) decide to swim back to the ship. These two cruise-ship workers pick us up in the water on jet skis and when we get back to the ship tell us that we have to pay $10 per person because they picked us up. I argue about paying the fee. Then I wake up.

Who has these kind of dreams!?!? What do they MEAN?

Went to the midnight screening of Dan Brown's/Ron Howard's 'Angels and Demons' last night. I loved looking at the Roman scenery (and got a little more excited to visit in July!!). They cut a lot out of the book, but I'm sure if they had tried to keep everything in there, the movie would have been too long. I still really enjoyed it!

If you haven't read the book, YOU MUST DO THIS. It was one of the best books I've ever read. I think I might actually read it again :)

Also, saw a trailer for a new Meryl Streep and Amy Adams movie "Julie and Julia." Looks adorable. (Seriously adorable. Watch the trailer here. Watch it.)I bargained with Dan and said I'd sit through Transformers 2 if he went to J&J with me :) I love negotiating!

Everyone is getting really freaked out about Swine Flu. I thought this was cute:

How Swine Flu Began

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I'm a big fan of The Golden Girls. Was saddened to hear that Bea Arthur (Dorothy Zbornak) had passed away this weekend. She was probably my favorite character. You'll be missed, Bea. Thanks for all the laughs.

I know I've been on the Bill Bryson train lately, but I just can't get enough of his stuff. It's hilarious. I was crying last night from laughing. My roommates thought I was in hysterics because I was stressed out about planning my wedding. Nope. Just happy that Bill Bryson knows what it feels like to ride in the car across the Midwest. My favorite bit from last night's reading, from The Lost Continent: Travels in Small-town America, by Bill Bryson (on vacation driving with his family):

So I rarely do this. But I'm doing it now because I need to vent a little bit.

I'm always taking care of people. And I love it! I love making sure everyone is happy, I love buying gifts. I'm the person who if I see something at the store that I know you would like, I would probably buy it for you, just because. I love planning parties, and if it's your birthday, you'd better believe we're gonna have a good time! I'm the peacemaker. And I'm not even the middle child, I always thought that was weird. Being the only child I've always been told that I'm spoiled and selfish even. I know that I'm spoiled...but that's not really my fault. My parents didn't have any other kids to spoil, so what am I supposed to do? They did a really great job making sure I wasn't a brat, though. I take care of my things and I know what a dollar is worth. I think I'm a pretty smart cookie when it comes to money and material things.

What I want to know is why it feels like no one ever does this for me. Why doesn't someone throw me a good party? Maybe because my bachelorette party is coming up in a couple months and I'm mentally sabotaging it because I see it ending up like my 21st birthday. I just feel like I'm always watching out for everyone else but nobody else is really watching out for me. Dan excluded of course, but it's expected of him :) I'm talking mainly about my friends.

This is a pity party because I'm planning this wedding and 3 out of 4 of my bridesmaids don't live anywhere near me. So it's hard to get excited about wedding stuff with no one to share it with. And my mom just turns it into a circus and I feel like I can't get out of the huge white wedding circus tent.

Everything will be ok. I just want the wedding to be over, for Dan and I to go on our AMAZING European honeymoon and finally be together. Life will be good.

Thanks for letting me get it out! Ok, pity party over :) Enjoy Wednesday!

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2 - I'll post the photo of Bill Bryson signing my book later tonight ;)